Why am I Unstoppable?

Who is the lady behind this page is something you may wonder. Well let me take a little time with my first EVER blog post to share with you a little about me. Not about Unstoppable Butterfly, but about what makes Shane’i Carmen an unstoppable butterfly. To begin I am mother of 3; 2 boys and 1 girl. I began my motherhood journey at the age of 22 and though the number says I am grown my mentality said otherwise. At this age I was lost, confused, depressed and unsure of how I would care for a little human when I didn’t even know how to care to for myself. I struggled in many areas of my life at this time. My relationships, my addictive personality, my finances and loving myself properly. I was told by some to abort my son and if I’m being transparent and honest I thought of it also. That was the fearful side of me, but God had other plans and literally sent me an angel here on earth to be light in my dark world.

There was a young lady who I worked with who believed God had sent her to this exact state and job specifically for me. She would pray with me everyday when she took me home from work and never judged me or my situation. One day we were in the car and the song “Let Go and Let God” by DeWayne Woods came on the radio. Instantly we both broke down crying and I knew in that moment that God was on my side, my son was a blessing and that God had us covered. Now my relationship with God didn’t begin in that moment, I grew up in church but of course life happens and you stray away from the light and get consumed in what the world has to offer. Through all of my mess and mistakes God was always protecting, providing and covering me. My son came at the perfect time because even through all of my imperfection’s and flaws I now had a reason to keep going and not give up. There were times when depression tried to take me out mentally and physically but my son was always at the forefront of my mind and ultimately was my strength. Looking back at the past 14 years I could NOT imagine my life without my 1st born because he literally saved my life.

My 2nd son came when I was 27 years old. Now to be honest I haven’t always made the best choices when it came to men so I found myself a single mother of not just one child but now two. I was still struggling but in a better place mentally and this is when I began to go to church and ended up joining. Through the years I have struggled with so much internally and externally. I have lost jobs, been evicted, in toxic relationships, addiction, self-hate and the list literally goes on. My faith and trust in God has taken me to a different level of peace, joy, happiness, fulfillment and the notion that I am an unstoppable force. There have been so many things in life that have tried to literally take me out, but I never gave up. I found hope again in God, in myself and in life. My 3rd blessing came just a year ago and I was blessed with a daughter. This time around for me is so different and I no longer find myself being in survival mode or gripped with fear. I am in a place where I love being a mom of three and will do any and everything I can to give my children the best lives I possibly can. A life they don’t have to heal from, one filled with love, encouragement, hope and GOD.

I AM UNSTOPPABLE because I never gave up and I have found the beauty behind and in the struggle. I believe my story could help someone else who is struggling in life, in motherhood or who has lost hope. I want every woman to find that aspect in life that makes them UNSTOPPABLE. Walk in it, be it and don’t give up!!! The metaphor of the butterfly are all the things that I have had to go through to get to where I am now. I’m not saying I have all the answers or everything is perfect but I want to remind you to NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU!! Your story is yours and your alone and DON’T ever be ashamed of the things you went through or are going through. Never allow anyone to tell you who you are or who you can become because of your past. I have learned that my past doesn’t define who I am capable of becoming. I have learned that God has a perfect plan for my life and though I have taken some detours he always gets me right back on track. I have learned that my children are a blessing and gift from God (PSALM 127:3) and I am exactly where God needs me to be in life. Sometimes things can look so hopeless but I am living, breathing proof that there is beauty through the process. There is butterfly in there waiting to emerge and become unstoppable. You will soar and fly into places you never knew you could you just can’t give up when things get tough.

KNOW THAT YOU ALREADY ARE AN UNSTOPPABLE BUTTERFLY!!!!!